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Cara Levine

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now that im here

June 9, 2023

there are some things I want (and don’t want) to remember:

  • that thing Dr Max said about the survival brain vs the creative brain - that when the survival brain is active the creative brain is suppressed, impossible to access. That you need space and safety to feel creativity flourish.

  • the fact that my moms signature still looks the same. when she writes it now, although she says she can’t read or write anymore.

  • how many charities send her mail for a next donation

  • how the word HOPE on the HOPE Unit sign was missing on the placard outside my mom’s unit

  • the peeling wallpaper in the hospital meeting rooms

  • what her eyes look like filled w pink eye'

  • anxiety as restlessness

  • her matted hair, grey growing in marking this time like a strange lengthening band of her depression

  • her crooked and small body the first to walk onto the plane after being wheeled to the gate

  • how when I write a postcard I still feel a little like I can speak to her as I did before

  • dreams and journal entries

  • drink her up and fill my body

  • mother daughter mirror - future/past mirror

← ungodly hours →

looking for an outlet

maybe this is it.