that feeling when you are trying to coordinate a last ditch family intervention and you accidentally include your mother - she who needs the intervention - on the text thread. I wrote describing the plan for this weekend’s visit to try to get her to come around to ECT and asking family if they would write her a loving letter that I would hand deliver. About 20 texts flew between my uncle, her brother, and myself before he realized that she was on this thread.

How am I supposed to feel about this? There is nothing that she doesn’t already know. But also, now she might decide to cancel the visit. She might feel trapped, unloved, scared…I don’t really know. I know I don’t have a rewind button. This happened. It’s not a big deal. And if it is, so be it. Time to let go.